My GooGurl

End of another year.

2012-01-02T15:11:00.001+08:00

Bye 2011, and hello 2012.

What a girl wants.

2011-09-19T22:13:00.002+08:00

Look into her eyes

You can see she's crying out

She hides behind her smile

You can see the pain of doubt

And if you would hold her close

You could feel the brokenness inside

You would know she feels alone

She feels empty

She needs more than a hug on a holiday

She needs more than a smile on a Sunday

She's not looking for you to fix what's wrong

She really wants to know

Really wants to know she belongs

She needs more than a love song

Listen to her now

Broken is a beautiful sound

She's a little scared

She's afraid of falling further down

But maybe if you let her know

And gave her just a little hope

Somehow if she knew the truth

She'd come alive

She needs more than a hug on a holiday

She needs more than a smile on a Sunday

She's not looking for you to fix what's wrong

She really wants to know

Really wants to know she belongs

She needs more than a love song

In the end

We will learn

Actions speak louder then our words

She needs more than a hug on a holiday

She needs more than a smile on a Sunday

She's not looking for you to fix what's wrong

She really wants to know

Really wants to know she belongs

She needs more than a love song

Fireflight

More Than A Love Song

Eye Candy

2011-09-11T17:40:00.000+08:00

So in love!

Tyler Blackburn

Pretty Little Liars.

Thistle.

2011-09-02T11:21:00.003+08:00

Two years back we were talking about assignments and crappy lecturers, now we're talking about work stress, money and buying cars and houses, in the future we'll be talking about getting married and making babies. Cant wait till that happens. Haha I can imagine us bringing our brood of girls and boys to meet up. *smiles*

Well eventhough we only had a short time together, it was enough to bring all the memories back. I miss you fat asses so much. Till the next time we meet then.

A change of pace.

2011-08-13T14:23:00.002+08:00

Oh did I mentioned Im quitting my current job having secured another one at Cosmotots uptown? Yeahhhh. *breathes out in relieve*

No more 1 hour travelling time to get to work. No more moody post pregnancy depressed boss. No more formal clothes. No more passing dirty filthy carbon monoxide filled roads. No more once a month flu-cough-sore throat-fever.

Thank you God for this oppurtunity.

Daykeepers retreat

2011-07-01T19:56:00.000+08:00

Alas..we multiplied..
oh well..
^^

Derky Land

2011-05-17T19:56:00.001+08:00

A much needed break.

With this I will readily brave the working world again tomorrow.

Phasa kedua.

2011-05-07T21:27:00.003+08:00

Yes its been a long time, then maybe I should shut down this blog and get over with it. Dont even know why its still here. I dont know but since Ive come back to kl, Ive realized I changed so much. Well I sleep earlier, I fall sick easier, feel myself growing older by the minute, little things that use to mean much just don't matter anymore, im beginning to take reality more seriously, I realize the importance of spending a lot of time with my family, and many other things.

Whats new, oh yeah, Ive started dancing again finally. Hoping to get back into tapping but maybe later. After all those years I believe its kind of a waste if I dont finish what Ive started since primary.

Kids are kids, after working with them for half a year, not sure if i ever want any of those soon. They make can really be a bother, but then again, they can be angels too. Im thinking what will mine turn out to become in the future. And with the cost of living going up and our pay not on par with it I think its gonna be quite hard, well maybe. Nursery and kindy fees are a killer man. Seriously. The length to which parents would go just to make sure their kids produce results. With all their character upbringing going down the drain. And talking about character upbringing, I actually forgot what it was like to be in a non christian environment, at least half of my students come from broken homes and they end up having emotional problems themselves. Its really a sad world we live in. Or should I say theres so much need everywhere, sometimes I spend so much time around these kids with problems that I end up feeling depressed over the condition of society. I am so thankful I have God with me. Gotta remind myself to "see a need and meet it, see a hurt and heal it", but I already have problems of my own, how am I supposed to help others.

Oh and please someone teach me how to handle bullies!

Yeah, was thinking about maybe I should write that for my thesis. "Challenges 21st century students face in school and life compared to students 30/40 years ago". By the way, its already May and I havent even written a single word for my proposal. Guess some things dont change.

The weathers been a real bitch lately, come to think of it, I kinda prefer the rain of the scorching weather we're having now. Reminds me of Kampar in a way. Damn I miss that place. Just you wait Ghany, Ill be seeing you in a few weeks time.

I cant believe Im actually saying this but Ive become quite weight conscious, then again maybe its due to the fact that my danc class are filled with skinny people. Sigh, if you're wondering, this is the real shit man. This is the real torture. I go home from class with aches all over my body, shows how unfit I am, and you can actually hear the screams of pain from the students if you stand right outside the studio entrance. But oh well, for the price of keeping my body dance worthy.

My long awaited break is just around the corner, I seriously cannot wait. Im so tired that dragging myself to work everyday is a given. Its pathetic as I imagine working life to be different. Sigh.

Till then.

Bachelor's

2011-03-21T21:09:00.000+08:00

One down
on to the next.

My Graduation

2011-03-19T16:50:00.001+08:00

No, its not the end,
Its just the beginning.

Kudos to us all.

Hugs and kisses

2011-03-15T19:52:00.000+08:00

Dad got me this for convo.
Finally some decent pictures.

*contented sigh*

My loves

2011-03-14T21:22:00.001+08:00

*Loves and smacks ass*

*Loves and cuddles*

Ps. Convo is finally here.
Thank God.

Cutie cutie

2011-03-10T20:27:00.002+08:00

See how cute they are.
My babies.
How on earth am i ever gonna leave.

Haha.

Oh and by the way, im graduating.
Finally.
Thank God.

Just another hurdle.....

2011-02-28T20:04:00.003+08:00

Im really drowning God.
Please save me.

Ti Amo.

2011-02-13T22:19:00.002+08:00

You're unpredictable.
Its alright.
I love you.

Happy Valentines.

Sweet Serendipity

2011-02-06T21:06:00.002+08:00

I ain’t got no car

And I've got one pair of jeans
They’ve been stretched too far
And now they’re weak at the seams
I can’t say what’s next
And I got nothin' up my sleeve
But I don’t lose my head
Cause it ain’t really up to me

[chorus]
And I’m doing just fine
I’m always landing on my feet
In the nic of time
And by the skin of my teeth
I ain’t gonna stress
Cause the worst ain’t happened yet
Somethings watching over me
Like Sweet Serendipity
Sweet Serendipity

I don’t ask for a lot
No nothing more than I need
Because I love what I got
Don’t need to play the lottery
I just want to be strong
At the end of the road
I don’t want to hold on
I want the strength to let go

[chorus]
And I’m doing just fine
I’m always landing on my feet
In the nic of time
And by the skin of my teeth
I ain’t gonna stress
Cause the worst ain’t happened yet
Somethings watching over me
Like Sweet Serendipity

And what will be will be
In the nic of time
And by the skin of my teeth
I aint gonna stress
Cause the worst ain’t happened yet

Sweet Serendipity
Lee Dewyze

Holiday's over..damn..
Back to work again..
Sigh....

A red sun

2011-01-18T20:06:00.001+08:00

"A red sun rises..
Blood has been spilled tonight.."

-Legolas-
The Lord of the Rings: The Return of The King

Eh..i really saw one today..
the sun was red! so cool!

Teehee.

Simple pleasures

2011-01-09T21:31:00.003+08:00

It feels real good to be reminded that
"you're needed and wanted"
sometimes.

*satisfied sigh*

Year end resolution?

2010-12-28T15:18:00.002+08:00

Taking a trip to the land down below to visit crystal
tmr with this little bugger next to me.

Mum was saying i should put more time into spending and
maintaining the relationships with my friends.

Yeah I probably should, cuz when next year starts again,
it'll be back to my 9 - 6, dinner and sleep all over again.

I was right when i said working life is pretty lifeless.
But then I have money. lol.

And its quite amazing what Id do to get my share.
Going to work even if Im running a fever
just to make sure i dont take an unnecessary leave.

You know what I really need now,
I need a freakin camera!

Time to work that ass off again my girl.

Till then.

Perfect Nightmare

2010-12-27T18:52:00.000+08:00

Shontelle
Perfect Nightmare

Merrry Chriiissstmas!!!

2010-12-25T08:59:00.002+08:00

This seriously cannot be happening.
Its been a week and i still dont have my voice back.

And Ive got an audition in january coming up soon!
HOW!!

Silver Bells

2010-12-19T16:13:00.004+08:00

Silver bells...
Its Christmas time in the city...

Its that season i love so much again.
A time filled with presents, goodwill, sharing and joy.

Time to take out that old Christmas tree from the attic and reassemble it.
Time to decorate the porch with lights.

Turkey and shepards pie for dinner.
Cookies and candy canes for little kids.

Time for a break from work
and take that holiday you've been looking forward
to for the entire year.

And then, I just HAD to fall sick and lose my voice.
WHY God WHY?!!

RIUT! Risk It, U Turn!

2010-12-06T20:34:00.002+08:00

R.I.U.T was awesome.
Way better than awesome actually!
God's presence was so tangible.

New frienships formed, some many of them whom I had mutual friends with.
Awesome stories collected
and lessons learnt.
I remember we were singing Chris Tomlin's
How Great is Our God
and i was crying non stop,
and i kept wondering why was i crying.

And we got to hear from Dr Living Lee!
He gave such an awesome testimony..
me renjie n jensen couldnt believe our ears when he told us about the Ahmed Deedat incident.

Anyway, its back to work for me.

Oooo by the way, im a registered voter,
ARE YOU?! *cheh, so proud so proud*

If you arent, go register, we have a responsibility to change the nation for God.

God bless.

lets do a post about hair!

2010-11-28T18:40:00.003+08:00

Lets grow our hair long together
and then you'll learn to braid mine in many different ways!
Yays!

Btw, Nc starts tmr. I CANNOT WAIT!

We.

2010-11-26T00:02:00.002+08:00

We're tighter than you think, idiots.

See we're okay wert,

Ive always believed in us,
just so you know.

And now welcome to "your new life".
Greater things in store for those who love Him.

CHEERS!

2010-11-21T23:45:00.000+08:00

Dog-gone

2010-11-14T21:19:00.002+08:00

Id love to think i wont be like that after tmr.

Well good luck to me.

Trudging

2010-11-08T17:04:00.001+08:00

I miss you.
Sigh.

On a lighter note,
Im starting work soon.
*frowns*

Swearing off Kong Pneah forever!!!!!!

2010-11-03T02:28:00.003+08:00

The most natural thing to do when ure at the beach.

Thanks for the sticky dear.
That was quite random but still..
*big big grin*

Curse you kong pneah!!!
Curse you!!!!

emo....

2010-10-31T23:56:00.002+08:00

Back to reality.

lol.

Coming of age

2010-10-23T22:05:00.002+08:00

Trying to get used to this is like trying to get used to my head being shaved bald.
Im direction less n worried all the time.
Sigh

Im wondering if this'll ever get better.
Looking at the picture up here, i can actually see the "age lines" already..
Bev told me yesterday..
"im getting old"

lol

Till then

My first resume

2010-10-20T23:20:00.000+08:00

RESUME ARRRRRRRRR

SIENNN ARRRRRR

Frus.

2010-10-18T17:56:00.004+08:00

Looking for a job isnt as easy as it looks...

It takes hours and hours of pouring over newspapers or in my case, staring at the computer screen looking through the many thousand job offers at jobstreet.com.

Sigh, do i really have to do this?

Damn classifieds..*mutters*

Though im not admitting it, im missing everyone already.
Im beginning to feel a little detached. Damn.

Sigh..

Nevermind la, just defer another maybe 2 years hor?(Quoting Florence)

Ka Cheek!

2010-10-17T21:25:00.003+08:00

Just a few pictures i havent posted up.

Camp's over. And im feeling damn emo now. And believe me, when im feeling emo after a camp, its actually kinda bad. I still remember the last camp i felt emo after it ended...That was when i was 15 after my church youth camp at PD. Sigh.

Oh well. Life must go on...sob...

And im waiting for those pictures to be up!!!!! FASTER FASTER!!!!

Till then

Fat?

2010-10-07T01:55:00.001+08:00

Just a random thought

I think i really need to start looking after my weight.

Shiet.

Forever is just a word

2010-10-04T00:07:00.002+08:00

Great times.
Dont worry guys, there will be others coming out way.

Loves.

Reminiscing

2010-10-02T00:08:00.001+08:00

Here we go guys.
Stepping out into the big unknown.

Hey ho lets go!

2010-09-30T22:14:00.010+08:00

I dont know why everyone made it seemed like this little trip signified the end of our undergraduate years together.

I mean we'll still see each other sometime.

Well my dears, wherever we will go, whatever we will do, we'll always be a part of each other.

Im glad you guys were my classmates, and ill never give that part up for anything.

All the best my dear friends,

Ill definitely see you all around.

Tata.

Bye bye Kampar

2010-09-27T06:32:00.004+08:00

Dear kampar

Im leaving on the 1pm bus after my last paper later. Thank you for playing host to me for 2 and a half years of my degree course. I dont know how to show my appreciation for what you have done in my life these few years.

I will definitely miss you and your beautiful sun rises and sets, your crazy weather and the like and remember how insane they made me on certain days.

I will miss riding up and down your roads in my borrowed bike(which has becomed kyle's) and walking in those rain showers under my umbrella. I will miss cursing the scorching sun every afternoon and sometimes at night when im cranky. I will miss the lake in front of block b where i get to see otters gamboling about in the sand occasionally when im lucky.

I will miss the pasar mlm every wednesday where i will beg kyle to accompany me to. Ill miss the Ktar pool where i go swimming with crystal and sandy sometimes to check out hot guys. ^^ Ill miss ghany and maha maju where i just discovered their oh so awesome nasi lemak ayam. Ill miss sitting at the walkway in front of the westlake guard house with crystal talking about life.

Ill miss the tuck shop in westlake where i would go mid night to buy junk food when i cant sleep. Ill miss the slope outside westlake where i used to play and cycle up with the guys. And ill definitely miss the stupid mcdonalds who decided to open shop just when im leaving.

Ill miss your beautiful night sky where i get to see the clear bright moon and the stars with Orient's Belt on a cloudless night. Shit im really gonna miss that.

Ill miss all the wonderful people you've let me meet while i was here, the people that i love so much and will never forget wherever i go. And ill miss all the laughter, joy and heartaches that ive had too no matter how much they made me hate life.

But most of all ill miss all the lessons you've allowed me to experience and go through here in this little town. Those lessons i will take to the grave, and remember for life. Those lessons that will help shape who ill become in the future.

Ill really miss you so much kampar,
Thank you
and
Goodbye.

May you flourish and prosper under God's grace when im gone.

End game?

2010-09-21T22:58:00.003+08:00

Finally, im done with my degree. Three years of ***ked up non stop drama phew. Two more papers to go which im supposed to be studying very hard for, but no, my mind has already gone into "holiday" mode and my dad keeps reminding me to study with every sms he sents. Bah.

So what next? A break i guess and then time to fire up that resume and look for a job. Darn.

Here we go, Ive officially reached another cross road in life. The last one was 4 years ago. This time its for the long run.......*looks off into horizon*

These few days ive been trying to spend as much time with my classmates and boyfriend. I keep thinking of how much things are gonna change. Me dressing and going to work everyday keeps playing again and again in my mind. I feel scared most of the time, course its just a normal thing everyone goes through, but its a big thing for me who is used to depending on people other than myself.

Hmm, oh well.

My funny friend(s) and me

2010-08-11T21:10:00.007+08:00

In the quiet time of evening

When the stars assume their patterns
And the day has made his journey
And we wondered just what happened

To the life we knew before the world changed
When not a thing I held was true
But you were kind to me and you reminded me

That the world is not my playground
There are other things that matter
And when a simple needs protecting (*see below)
My illusions all would shatter

But you stayed in my corner
The only world I know was upside down
And now the world and me, I know you carry me

You see the patterns in the big sky
Those constellations look like you and I
Just like the patterns in the big sky
We could be lost we could refuse to try
But we made it through in the dark night
Would those lucky guys turn out to be
But that unusual blend of my funny friend and me

I'm not as clever as I thought I was
I'm not the boy I used to be because
You showed me something different, you showed me something pure

I always seemed so certain but I was really never sure
But you stayed and you called my name
When others would have walked out on a lousy game
And you could've made it through
But your funny friend and me

You see the patterns in the big sky
Those constellations look like you and I
That tiny planet in a bigger guy
I don't know whether I should laugh or cry

Just like the patterns in the big sky
We'll be together till the end is nigh
Don't know the answer or the reason why
We'll stick together till the day we die

If I had to do this all a second time
I won't complain or make a fuss
When the angels sing that that unlikely blend
Are those two funny friends
That's us

-sting-
Emperor's New Groove

This is for you guys.

Lazieeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

2010-08-06T23:22:00.003+08:00

I wish god would just strike me down with lighting sometimes. Especially those times when i start procrastinating, or play computer games instead of doing work. And you know how bad the situation is when you start enjoying strategy games like "Starcraft 2". Kylie is really a bad influence i tell you, since i met him, both money and time have been wasted on that "demonic" place called the cyber cafe. I use to detest gamers, now im one of them *covers head*. Imagine using all those money to treat myself to CHILLIS!

Anyway so back to where i was, in the beginning ill be damn gungho wan, set datelines on phone la, write notes down to remind myself la, then when the time actually comes for me to start my work, everything goes out the window..whats that word again? ohya "defenestrate" (they even have a specific word for that action! all hail the power of English!). So how you tell me?! I am so in need of some serious spanking. And my good for nothing friends, semua pun macam ni wan. No help at all. Ive got this classmate who has already finished her conclusion for her fyp and I? am still stuck at chapter 3 & 4.

Yes i am a loser. Many times over.

Chillis. We (me n kylie) were discussing that there are places (eateries) that requires the presense of a certain friend of ours to be present with us before embarking on our once a month glutton trip to these places. One of those happens to be Chillis, another one would be Sushi Zanmai. We were contemplating where to have our lunch this afternoon, and kylie suggested chillis. The reaction was so immediate. And the both of us said "nah, that place have to wait for florence wan"...and the same thing happened when we were looking at sushi zanmai.

Florencetina Chew Yu Mey. Our eating-at-expensive-places kaki.

I thank God for my mum really. I think she's the best mum i could ever have. She likes to compare how fat i am with her aneroxic-like-body. She makes cookies and calls them "shit cookies". She keeps on gossiping non stop for about 2 hours about her dance classmates. She talks in a really loud voice that makes others listening think she's scolding me (like most chinese blooded mums from hakka families). She will text me and ask me questions like what is ">.<"???? And i keep thinking, aww man, im gonna be coming back to this when i graduate. As much as i like to say she's really annoying, i love her to bits for being like this.

Maybe ill be able to be like her when i grow up. *big grin*

Kylie can be really unpredictable and it drives me crazy, times when i need him to be a darling hes normally quite stonned and "duhhhh" or even to the point of being a real rectum, and likewise when i dont need him to be nice to me..like this afternoon, I came across a book i have been waiting for at mph. It was the giant expensive version, not the small cheaper paper back one. I told him i really liked it, and he offered to buy it for me. I was thinking, huh? its a whopping 70 bucks, and i can get it for less than half when the paper back version comes out so wat the heck. Sweet, but unnecessary. Okay i dont know why im even talking about this, i guess he's just trying to be a darling.

Salt was good, as good as i expected it to be. I enjoyed it very much. Its just very comforting and confidence boosting when you watch female fatales punch and kick guys ass. Every now and then, i enjoy watching movies like these, the world needs more of these women. To show guys their place! Hiyak!

Anyway, gonna post up a few pictures later, these are actually quite overdue, i can nvr harap ppl like ponneey to upload them wan, she'll take like forever!!! Oh and my class'll be having a photoshoot this monday!! CANT WAIT!! Yes, i really need to change my fb profile picture soon, its so tiring having to look at my stupid face every time i log in.

Till then.

ps. these were taken during visha's suprise bday thing.

Mini goodness

2010-07-23T00:48:00.001+08:00

A month plus and counting...

sigh...

Me n You

2010-07-18T23:41:00.004+08:00

On msn messenger:

[KyleGuangPin] - [Acoustaephyerie] says:

jipuuut

ni wan diablo

ni pok diablo!

qu pok taaaaaa!!!

I say:

ok dear

i love you too

How we keep the fire going.
lols.

Peace.

Graduation pictures

2010-07-16T18:56:00.004+08:00

After our exceptionally good run through those 2 years plus, it was finally time to take our graduation pictures.

I dont know how I even felt, mix feelings i guess. Partly sad that everything is coming to an end, partly excited at what's gonna happen next.

The only things that kept me from tearing a little was probably the fact that I still hadn't gotten off that huge workload off my chest.

And I dont know how to say this but, my face looks worse for wear. Seriously, it looks so tired, you'll immediately feel tired looking at it. Yup thats me now.

I was in the LRT on the way to kl sentral on tuesday, a few days ago.

There were so many people around me dressed in formal work wear obviously on their way to their work place.

And the more i stared at them, the more i was freaking myself out. I mean in a few months time Ill look exactly like that. Another lifeless individual trudging through "adulthood". Aww man.

And to make things worse, my mum keeps bugging me to go look for a job. *groans* hmm, now I know why some people go on studying. I mean if it keeps me from having to work and earn money and those crap I dont think i mind.

Anyways, like everyone else, Im going to have to go through that sooner or later no matter how much I whine. Damn it la, I dont wanna grow up. And like I was telling my friends earlier this week, this whole whether-we-will-graduate-or-not thing (which we definitely will, lecturers are just scaring us) is just the start of our worries, there are bigger ones coming our way, and Im not sure im prepared for that in any way.

Damn it la.

My weekend alone. well not really.

2010-07-12T01:36:00.002+08:00

I went out with candice and her prince. We watched Despicable Me. And i can honestly tell you I havent had so much fun since...well since a long time ago.

This is such a "MUST WATCH". Dunno why for some weird reason whenever the little yellow beans (Refer to appendix A & B) start talking (they mumble gibberish) i keep thinking of florence. HAH!

Anyways, they're SHOOOOOOOOOOCUUUUUUUUUTEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Really, they're small, and they are handy in dark places (can be used as glow sticks), they're yellow and they mumble nonsense which will most definitely make you laugh.

I wish and wish i could take home one, or a few. Omg, they're so cutee!!!! ARGH!

Appendix A

Appendix B

And here is Gru and Agnes, the cutest girl you can ever meet. Really, she has this really cute round face and big big eyes..omg, i wish i had her as a sister. I would spoil really bad. Teehee.

Too bad kyle wasnt with me. They're all huddled up in the middle of a crowd at Haji Ghany waiting for the match. Bah. I dont even know why they bother, no matter who wins or lose, it doesnt make a difference anyways. Hmm.

Shopping with mum tomorrow. Hopefully i get back in time to finish editing my chapter 2. Soh's waiting for it. Sigh. I was just reminded just now that i have to start looking for a job....*groans*

DO I REALLY HAVE TO?!!!

I mean, cant i just stay in university.

Chrysanthemum?

2010-07-09T15:22:00.004+08:00

We are in the middle of semester. The end is looming near ever so slowly. I am mid way through my dreaded final year project. But Ive passed the tough part, the rest should be a breeze.

I was talking to my supervisor the other day, he told me to ask kyle to cut his hair. Hah, fat chance. I don't even like him short haired, it makes him look like a sissy. Anyways, time spent together for us are precious, there's always more and more work to bog us down. We don't even have time to argue anymore. Sigh.

Dang, I'm gonna miss all this.

On the way back just now, the train's air conditioning decided to take a rest and left our whole carriage sweltering in the heat. I don't even want to describe to you the beautiful words coming out of my mouth through out the journey. I tried to get some shut-eye but due to the heat I couldn't. Thank God it was only for the second half of the journey.

I came back alone this time, my other half was whining about "a lot of work blah blah blah"..Well, more time alone for me, and i get to go back on tuesday morning.

On a lighter note, I'm getting a new phone! Yay. Good riddance. Should be the last one to go. I wish i could say Im getting something cool like an iphone but nope, ill stick to those good ol chocolate bar phones you see everyday. Yup, nothing interesting, but then again, one day i tell you..one day...*looks off into the horizon*

Oh and did i mention ive got wifi in my house now?!! EEK!! Yeah, i know its nothing big, its just wifi..but its SO DARN COOL!!!!! hahahahahah quite jakun..

Well i shall stop here.

Till then.

Here we go.

2010-07-02T22:12:00.001+08:00

Undone.
Everything undone.

"What ifs"

2010-05-20T20:13:00.004+08:00

"What if's"

Life is always filled with them. They are the possible outcomes if things were different.

Okay, that sounded quite stupid. Hah, this is what happens when i try to be philosophical. A trait i never inherited from either parents.

I get really jealous of those dudes and duddettes whom philosophical phrases just spill out of them like its no big deal. People like "so" and "so". Yeah well, it makes them sound really smart. Hah, i tell you i cant even say something philosophical to save my life.

Alright, so im having my holidays now, and while im here trying to get some much needed rest, my parents are constantly nagging me about what will i be doing after i graduate...and that is "if" I graduate. Ive got this friend who gets to go overseas to study Performing Arts. Sigh. I wished i had that chance but no siree, thats not gonna happen in this lifetime of mine i think. Its always been a dream, really. And then to head up a school of performing arts here and minusing all the stupid traditional dances malaysians only know how to perform during Independence day and stuff. Boring, really.

No im talking about the stuff that people compete for internationally, and i tell you ive never heard of our fellow countrymen taking up titles of those sort. Its kinda of a pity i tell you, all the talent and no oppurtunity.

Anyway, by God's grace. I shall do that if given the chance.

Coming back to what i was talking about before, i must needs finish my stupid degree and head homeward first. Then we'll see how.

Mum's learning Hungarian and Chinese dances, not to mention ballet. Can you imagine that? Damn.

Its quite scary, because she's developing muscles that are beginning to look like the ones on Madonna. Its not a pretty sight.

And given the stupid situation at home now, i try my best to stay out of home. Sigh, why cant we all be normal people? I will never understand.

Well and good, Im going Johor next monday. And glad for that respite. Dont exactly know when i can go back there anyway. Hopefully a few more times before our last semester ends if time permits. My friends are the closes thing i have to family these times. I appreciate their beings so much I feel I will never be able to get through university life without them. Sometimes, i even feel they love me more than any boyfriend of mine. Yes, they mean that much.

Mum told me, the friends you meet in college and university will last you a lifetime so treasure them.

Quite true.

She still keeps in touch with hers from back in university.

The weather has been pleasant enough for my taste since coming back from that god forsaken town and i mean that literally. I actually like the rain, it brings the cool evening breeze.

And as much as spontanity is my cup of tea, i believe compromise is too when i absolutely need to. Im sorry.

So here as far as i go this time round.

ps. I dont care what is said, you will not play a part in our "merry making" anymore. We leave you to your own devices. In other words, "Screw You!". Life's a bitch aint it.

Till then.

Session expired

2010-04-21T09:41:00.000+08:00

All is well. Thank You.

Sticks tongue out and does rocker sign

2010-04-15T23:44:00.002+08:00

This is Kyle Tan Guang Pin
He is stupeed.

kthxbye.

Hellgate London

2010-04-15T16:51:00.002+08:00

Just something im getting crazily obsessed over currently.

Life after you

2010-04-11T13:16:00.000+08:00

Ten miles from town and I just broke down
Spittin' out smoke on the side of the road
I'm out here alone just tryin' to get home
To tell you I was wrong but you already know

Believe me I won't stop at nothin'
To see you so I've started runnin'

All that I'm after is a life full of laughter
As long as I'm laughin' with you
I'm thinkin' that all that still matters is love ever after
After the life we've been through
'Cause I know there's no life after you

Last time we talked, the night that I walked
Burns like an iron in the back of my mind
I must've been high to say you and I
Weren't meant to be and just wastin' my time

Oh, why did I ever doubt you?
You know I would die here without you

All that I'm after is a life full of laughter
As long as I'm laughin' with you
I'm thinkin' that all that still matters is love ever after
After the life we've been through
'Cause I know there's no life after you

You and I, right or wrong, there's no other one
After this time I spent alone
It's hard to believe that a man with sight could be so blind
Thinkin' 'bout the better times, must've been outta my mind
So I'm runnin' back to tell you

All that I'm after is a life full of laughter
Without you God knows what I'd do, yeah

All that I'm after is a life full of laughter
As long as I'm laughin' with you
I'm thinkin' 'bout all that still matters is love ever after
After the life we've been through, yeah
Know there's no life after you

Know there's no life after you
Know there's no life after you
Know there's no life after you
Know there's no life after you
Know there's no life after you
Know there's no life after you
Know there's no life after you, yeah

Life after you
Daughtry

Wish upon a star

2010-04-10T00:47:00.002+08:00

You light the skies up above me

A star so bright you blind me yeah yeah

Don?t close your eyes

Don?t fade away don?t fade away oh

Yeah you and me we can ride on a star

If you stay with me girl we can rule the world

Yeah you and me we can light up the sky

If you stay by my side we can rule the world

If walls break down i will comfort you

If angels cry oh i'll be there for you

You've saved my soul

Don?t leave me down don?t leave me now oh

Yeah you and me we can ride on a star

If you stay with me girl we can rule the world

Yeah you and me we can light up the sky

If you stay by my side we can rule the world