Mummy's little girl is all grown up..

And so time came when i turned 20. Hmm, the feeling isnt at all that great, entering into another phase of life and leaving my teens behind. Im a big girl now, or so mummy says..Some how i dont feel so "big"...

Any new resolutions you ask me?
yeah, im gonna be able pursue what ive wanted to do all long..
Full force is what people would call it.

With no one stopping me..


Father,
you reading this?
Ive always wanted for this little life of mine to mean something..
You help me yah?

Anway, a brief look into the past..
















That phase i went through which most girls go through..
The, the-search-for-the-right-self-potrait phase..
















25th anniversary dinner at Sunway convention centre
2004 i think..















One of my favourite xyz camps at pd..
2005















When denise still had long hair..and chewy was still around..















That bike craze i went through in secondary..
Btw, this is a ducati 999 R..
Just look at that body..phew















Those times when jian and i would just take dumb pictures for fun















When we still had bu cell within du cell..















When we use to be the best of friends..















When i was still working at italiannies, and met these bunch of clowns..















when we use to not listen during add maths and sejarah and keep swapping places with each other..
And candice wasnt with yoke yet..hah















Prom 2005















My favorite person in class..well one of them..















And how you would always help me with econs and accounts















My beloved brother, too bad he's all grown up now..no more candid moments anymore..















Me and nat during home e i think..















Toy Symphony 2006















When we were all young and innocent back then, and when jeff and chuen were still around..



Those were the days..
Yes, i wont deny the fact that i wish i was still back there with them.
Going to tuition almost everyday,
hanging out at may ann's house after school..
Meeting up with chew, lem and germaine during cell...
hmm...only worrying about exams..


Anyway, that time's gone, ive got to look ahead now..


Well, pictures i took on thursday, yesterday and all..

















































Bev and arthur, my dear friends from class, thanks for the brooch, i love it so much..
and arthur, i cant believe my mum said ure good looking..ahaha..*rolls on floor*















My birthday cake. Courtesy of Aunty Evelyn.















Some how i think i look the best in here. The rest just look like...
okay i shall not say it..hmm..
*smirks*




And the beautiful presents given to me:
















That cute pair of knickers from may ann
My babe a few doors down..well, not for very long..i know you'll be shifting dear..i really dont want you to go, thanks for all the memories, that important part you played in my life..for the times i knew i could count on you to watch my back. For the things we did in Form 3..remember? haha..the only thing we didnt really do much was to take pictures..haha..we'll do that more before i leave alright? Growing up with you was the best thing i could get from you. Love you so much. Muaxx.

Cant wait for our date.
*winks*
















The money me bev arthur and ian spent on that stupid arcade game..
It was still worth it guys, thanks.
















The Butterfly brooches
From bev and arthur.
Cant believe u guys got that for me!















And this sweet little case..well honestly i dont know what is it for, but it has a mirror and i love mirrors..
From joyce















And finally
Purpose driven Youth Ministry by Doug Fields, foreword by Rick Warren.
I love it.

This came at 12 smtg this morning when i was almost falling asleep..
Good thing it did not come at 2 smtg u idiot..

Together with my favourite BR ice cream flavour..















this















and this















hmm..yay..done eating it..

Thanks ian..

Not to forget the 'Tiramisu with a twist' from James. Thanks man. Haha, there's even fruits inside. I like it a lot! You can definately open a restaurant. Ill be your first customer alright mate?
*winks*

And the caramel cheese cake from David. Thanks for bringing it to me all the way.

To all the guys and gals for all the bday wishes, really appreciate everyone for remembering!


Phew, finally done this. Took so long. Aih.





And a few pictures from today.















In room108.
















After service. Me and my bestie.


Finally,

Happy Birthday to Edward and Sarah!





































Okay, my back is gonna break dy. I need a rest..

Shu Ern over and out.

Born for this

Alright, so you think you’re ready?
Ok, then you say this with me
Go!
We were born for this
(We were born for this)

Alright, so you think you’re ready?
OK, then you say this with me
Go!
We were born for this
(We were born for this)
We were born for this
(We were born for this)

We were born for

We were born for


Born for this - Paramore

Free Hugs

Dont know why,
when i first saw this video,
i just started crying..
Phew..

Everyone loves hugs right?

And some how it reminds me of God's love for everyone,
But sometimes people cant be bothered i guess..
Like the guy in the video at the first part..

hmm..

In the name of dance

Imagine dancing without one arm or one whole leg.
Still these two could pull this off so perfectly.
*kao tao*

Sunday afternoon

Its raining outside like cows and chickens. Im staring at the half typed phonetics assignment in front of me. My cousin's beside me watching Evolution on tv. Parents and jian are taking their sunday afternoon nap.

Woke up this morning and discovered another second eyebag under my already obvious first eyebag. Just great, what i just need right now. Now everyone is gonna start peering at my eyes and say " Shu ern, your eye bags have gotten worse! what happened?"..like i havent heard that before, and like i havent gotten enough nagging from my mum about it.

Yeah, my world is definately changing, no more ms nice shu ern. And its like happening so fast i have a problem keeping up. So many things happening, i dont even know how i should be reacting to them. Hmm, maybe im taking things a little too seriously, i dont know. Still its both good and bad in a way.

Its the month of april in a day's time. And im well looking forward to it. Well, firstly, dad's gonna be away most of the time. *evil grin*. Secondly, my birthday's coming. Weeee. Yeah, that reminds me how old i am. But still not as old as some poeple..*aherm*..

Oh gosh, i just realized im the youngest among the 3 of you idiots. *snickers*
Nyeh nyeh *Smacks ass*

Hmm, on a lighter note.

Im actually longing to rock climb again, that was seriously fun, honestly, id give up anything to do that again.

Went to camp5 a few weeks ago to try it out and get my mind of things.

And the view from up there was just spectacular, sitting there next to the huge glass gazing out over the highway, looking at the lights all over the place, sweating into my switchfoot shirt, sitting apek style, looking back up over the other side watching Noel climb the sentinel wall, noticing how Kevin kept peeking over from the other side at us, talking about May Ann and her *aherm* (yeah we were talking about you dear *winks*), and trying out all my different stupid facial expressions and making you laugh, not forgetting rolling on the mat and trying to do a somersault and failing miserably..at least i got that roll correct hor..hehe

Hmmmm....

Plus how we ate J'cos beggar style and ended up giving the extra donut to the guard aiyo-why-la-go-and-give-him, was just joking le...
*smacks head*

I missed that..

I really gotta do that again before i leave man.
And i so need to learn how to belay.


Faster finish all my assignments then maybe can go again.
*winks*

Aiyak..have to see that hamster tomorrow some more...
Finally got a chance to sit and talk to you..
cant wait..
*big grin with teeth*



shu ern over and out.

We're all looking for that patch of sun light

Frim outing on the 15th















on the canopy walk with Jeen.















Posing for pictures with ecg leaders.






























denise n me

















Youth Alpha training on the 19th and 20th.















kay tze and lik xiang















Jeen me n carmen















It was so tiring, some of us turned into our horizontal position after awhile















eg. This fella.















And all three of these fellas















EL1 during cake time, durian cake anyone?















Me at what i do best.















Last Wednesday's lunch.



The end.

Queen of His heart.

You are a woman. An image bearer of God. The Crown of Creation. You were chosen before time & space, and you are wholly and dearly loved. You are sought after, pursued, romanced, the passionate desire of you Fiance, Jesus. You are dangerous in you beauty and your life-giving power. And you are needed.
As a woman who has been ransomed and redeemed, you can be strong and tender. You speak to the world of God's mercy, mystery, beauty and His desire for intimate relationship. You are inviting; you can risk being vulnerable, offering the weght of you life as well as your need for more because you are safe in God's love. You labour with God to bring forth life - in creativity, in work, in others. Your aching, awakened heart leads you to the feet of Jesus, where you wait on Him and wait for Him. The eyes of His heart are ever upon you. The King is captivated by you beauty.
We need you. We need you to awaken to God more fully and to awaken to the desires of the heart that he placed within you so that you will come alive to Him and to the role that is yours to play. Perhaps you are meant to be a concert musician or a teacher. Perhaps you are meant to be a neurologist or a horse trainer. Perhaps you are to be a activist for ecology or the poor or the aged or the ill. Yo are certainly called to be a woman, wherever else He leads you.
And that is crucial, dear heart. Whatever your particular calling, you are meant to the grace the world with your dance, to follow the lead of Jesus wherever He leads you. He will lead you first into Himself; and then with Him, He will lead you into the world that He loves and needs you to love.

It is by Invitation.

Captivating by John & Stasi Eldredge

tatt - oo

I can't waste time so give it a moment
I realize, nothing's broken
No need to worry 'bout everything I've done
Live every second like it was my last one
Don't look back got a new direction
I loved you once, needed protection
You're still a part of everything I do
You're on my heart just like a tattoo

Tattoo - Jordin Sparks

Teardrops on my guitar

Teardrops on my Guitar

Drew looks at me, I fake a smile so he won't see
That I want and I'm needing everything that we should be
I'll bet she's beautiful, that girl he talks about
And she's got everything that I have to live without

Drew talks to me, I laugh cause it's just so funny
That I can't even see anyone when he's with me
He says he's so in love, he's finally got it right,
I wonder if he knows he's all I think about at night

[Chorus:]

He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only thing that keeps me wishing on a wishing star
He's the song in the car I keep singing, don't know why I do

Drew walks by me, can he tell that I can't breathe?
And there he goes, so perfectly,
The kind of flawless I wish I could be
She'd better hold him tight, give him all her love
Look in those beautiful eyes and know she's lucky cause

[Repeat Chorus]

So I drive home alone, as I turn out the light
I'll put his picture down and maybe
Get some sleep tonight

He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only one who's got enough of me to break my heart
He's the song in the car I keep singing, don't know why I do
He's the time taken up, but there's never enough
And he's all that I need to fall into..

Drew looks at me, I fake a smile so he won't see

Stuck in the same cliche.

Life's like a music player on shuffle mode sometimes.


My dear girl,

There are some times when you just feel like giving up, and asking...God? Can i just start over? Of course, that doesnt happen la. But then, sometimes you just feel so screwed up and messed up that you just feel like throwing everything away and screaming bloody murder to anyone or thing that comes within a 2 metre radius. But then life for everyone around you just looks so good and you feel like maybe you havent tried your best, maybe and just maybe, things will get better after awhile. But, why are you even doing this? Why try? You always end up stuck at the same place.

I also dunno how long i can stand myself being in this condition. I cant sleep at night, im always anxious and restless.

You how sometimes you feel like you're always alone in whatever you do? And people just dont seem to care anymore? Cuz they're just busy with whatever they're doing? Then you start to comfort yourself and think you "work" better alone. Well ive kindda learnt that when ever that happens it means that ive got to stop and reflect on whats going on, or im gonna crash and burn if i continue this nonsense.

You go around everyday putting a face and mask, hiding your true self cuz you're afraid of what people might say.

So why?





Ill tell you why. Because God loves's you. Its as simple as that. =)
So go out there and continue kicking asses.



Love,
Shu ern.





Anyway.

Have been reading a book recently, its called "Captivating" by John Eldredge and Stasi Eldredge. Beautifully written by this couple.




















It talks about how every little girl has dreams of being swept up into a great adventure, of being the beautiful princess. Sadly, when women grow up, they are often swept up into a life filled merely with duty and demands. Many Christian women are tired, struggling under the weight of the pressure to be a "good servant," a nurturing caregiver, or a capable home manager.

And there are so many things i never realised myself having. For example, God created women to be beautiful, in His image. haha. And women reflect the "feminine" side of God. Seriously, God has a feminine side? Suprise? Yeah..i definately am..

Great book, cant wait to read the other one, "Wild at Heart" by the both of them as well, for men. haha, need to read like both sides wan ma right..=)



shu ern over and out.

Really for the heck of it..

And here we are

LAN accreditation interview

And everyone were dressed in dresses and all their pretty frocks and blouses


except me...

Inter-fac

Just felt like posting another picture.
Utar christian fellowship.
Cant believe i actually took a picture with these people.

And wasting my time with that 2 idiots.
*winks*

wow


Just smooth shu ern, way to go..

I clicked the "new post" icon, placed my fingers on the keyboard and started typing.

Thoughts are running through my head like they always do, my ribs hurt like hell after yesterday's workout, heck, even my feet hurt. See im trying this new thing where i workout like twice a week. Well, i know that isnt enough at all, but then looking at my full schedule i dont think i can fit in anymore. But mum has been complaining of my lack of physical workout, she thinks im growing fat *shudders*, so i think i better start working those long forgotten muscles. A little of cardio here and there should do the trick. I still wont be able to start running though, with my feet still injured and all. And i should cut down on the bad stuff i use to take like cookies, biscuits, soft drinks, PRAWN CRACKERS!...yeah, the whole lot. Well, since then, the junk food in my house has started piling up, so feel free to drop by and help my mum finish them. *winks*

Tests are coming in by the dozens...no, not dozens, but still i have like 3 mid terms this week. 40% weih! Dun play play..And on top of that, cg duties just started as well. Haih, and then now and then, ive got different things to do, this week will be something, then another week will be another thing. During last week's zone meeting, we've decided to do the Stay-Out camp like we did last year for the std 6 xers. And then

Purdy: Shu ern, you be in charge okay?
Shu ern: Ermmmm.....okay la..i guess....*looks sheepish*

Here, we go again...^^

Just today, i realize I dont even have time to catch with my babe next door, may ann, i havent seen her in weeks. Bumped into her at piramid this afternoon after a wonderful session of Shogun. So i told myself ill see her on wednesday if possible..and hope i dont have to ffk her again..sorry may ann... And there's the Kampar thingy, prayed and prayed as hard as i could but in the end i still had to go to that god-forsaken place and away from all my beloved friends and stuff. Sobs, well, like people always say, look at the bright side hor?

Ive been planning something just recently, hoping that it'll turn out well, collaborating with people im not familiar with is just plain weird. No offense what so ever, i didnt even think they'd call me. Well, just so you know, it isnt easy, and it is stressful, and u know ill turn into a maniac under stress.


You better appreciate it you punk.
Growls.


ohya, before i forget..Happy Birthday to you too punk.


shu ern over and out.

Tiring? No, more like exhausting I'd say..

I think i might as well call this a photo blog la. I hardly blog anymore and all i do is to just post pictures. Anyway, here are the updated ones.

Voila...





















First up, starting with Kah ho's farewell..
















Yeah, goodbye kah ho, even though i dont know you that well, we'll miss you.
















And that same day, i was driving along the road and drove too close to the sidewalk and scraped against it. I heard a bang, and lo behold my tyre sudah bocor. And rest was history.















Then we had the skit for xyz. Where i became a mum. And we ended up using cantonese to converse during the skit for most of the time.




















Then i went out with candice. Hmm, i miss her.
















Then came chinese new year, which we did the same thing every year. Boring boring.

















Went back to class, drooled over Hayden Christensen starring in the movie Jumper.
So hawt!
Aherm aherm...

Anyway,
















Sampat ed abit in class,
















Sampat ed smore,
















Vonn will definately approve.

Then came valentines day.




















No, the cat's not gonna eat you up dear.
*exasperated sigh*
















Lastly















J'co s donouts = orgasm, according to someone.















Yuck.
That wasnt me.



Well, thats about it for these few weeks, more to come if everything goes well.
Stress stress. Where's help when i need it?!

This better be worth it you idiots.

Shu ern over n out.