Hey ho lets go!

I dont know why everyone made it seemed like this little trip signified the end of our undergraduate years together.

I mean we'll still see each other sometime.







































































































































































































































































































































































































































Well my dears, wherever we will go, whatever we will do, we'll always be a part of each other.

Im glad you guys were my classmates, and ill never give that part up for anything.

All the best my dear friends,

Ill definitely see you all around.




Tata.

Bye bye Kampar

Dear kampar

Im leaving on the 1pm bus after my last paper later. Thank you for playing host to me for 2 and a half years of my degree course. I dont know how to show my appreciation for what you have done in my life these few years.

I will definitely miss you and your beautiful sun rises and sets, your crazy weather and the like and remember how insane they made me on certain days.

I will miss riding up and down your roads in my borrowed bike(which has becomed kyle's) and walking in those rain showers under my umbrella. I will miss cursing the scorching sun every afternoon and sometimes at night when im cranky. I will miss the lake in front of block b where i get to see otters gamboling about in the sand occasionally when im lucky.

I will miss the pasar mlm every wednesday where i will beg kyle to accompany me to. Ill miss the Ktar pool where i go swimming with crystal and sandy sometimes to check out hot guys. ^^ Ill miss ghany and maha maju where i just discovered their oh so awesome nasi lemak ayam. Ill miss sitting at the walkway in front of the westlake guard house with crystal talking about life.

Ill miss the tuck shop in westlake where i would go mid night to buy junk food when i cant sleep. Ill miss the slope outside westlake where i used to play and cycle up with the guys. And ill definitely miss the stupid mcdonalds who decided to open shop just when im leaving.

Ill miss your beautiful night sky where i get to see the clear bright moon and the stars with Orient's Belt on a cloudless night. Shit im really gonna miss that.

Ill miss all the wonderful people you've let me meet while i was here, the people that i love so much and will never forget wherever i go. And ill miss all the laughter, joy and heartaches that ive had too no matter how much they made me hate life.

But most of all ill miss all the lessons you've allowed me to experience and go through here in this little town. Those lessons i will take to the grave, and remember for life. Those lessons that will help shape who ill become in the future.


Ill really miss you so much kampar,
Thank you
and
Goodbye.

May you flourish and prosper under God's grace when im gone.

End game?

Finally, im done with my degree. Three years of ***ked up non stop drama phew. Two more papers to go which im supposed to be studying very hard for, but no, my mind has already gone into "holiday" mode and my dad keeps reminding me to study with every sms he sents. Bah.

So what next? A break i guess and then time to fire up that resume and look for a job. Darn.

Here we go, Ive officially reached another cross road in life. The last one was 4 years ago. This time its for the long run.......*looks off into horizon*

These few days ive been trying to spend as much time with my classmates and boyfriend. I keep thinking of how much things are gonna change. Me dressing and going to work everyday keeps playing again and again in my mind. I feel scared most of the time, course its just a normal thing everyone goes through, but its a big thing for me who is used to depending on people other than myself.

Hmm, oh well.

My funny friend(s) and me

In the quiet time of evening

When the stars assume their patterns
And the day has made his journey
And we wondered just what happened

To the life we knew before the world changed
When not a thing I held was true
But you were kind to me and you reminded me

That the world is not my playground
There are other things that matter
And when a simple needs protecting (*see below)
My illusions all would shatter

But you stayed in my corner
The only world I know was upside down
And now the world and me, I know you carry me

You see the patterns in the big sky
Those constellations look like you and I
Just like the patterns in the big sky
We could be lost we could refuse to try
But we made it through in the dark night
Would those lucky guys turn out to be
But that unusual blend of my funny friend and me

I'm not as clever as I thought I was
I'm not the boy I used to be because
You showed me something different, you showed me something pure

I always seemed so certain but I was really never sure
But you stayed and you called my name
When others would have walked out on a lousy game
And you could've made it through
But your funny friend and me

You see the patterns in the big sky
Those constellations look like you and I
That tiny planet in a bigger guy
I don't know whether I should laugh or cry

Just like the patterns in the big sky
We'll be together till the end is nigh
Don't know the answer or the reason why
We'll stick together till the day we die

If I had to do this all a second time
I won't complain or make a fuss
When the angels sing that that unlikely blend
Are those two funny friends
That's us

-sting-
Emperor's New Groove


This is for you guys.

Lazieeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

I wish god would just strike me down with lighting sometimes. Especially those times when i start procrastinating, or play computer games instead of doing work. And you know how bad the situation is when you start enjoying strategy games like "Starcraft 2". Kylie is really a bad influence i tell you, since i met him, both money and time have been wasted on that "demonic" place called the cyber cafe. I use to detest gamers, now im one of them *covers head*. Imagine using all those money to treat myself to CHILLIS!

Anyway so back to where i was, in the beginning ill be damn gungho wan, set datelines on phone la, write notes down to remind myself la, then when the time actually comes for me to start my work, everything goes out the window..whats that word again? ohya "defenestrate" (they even have a specific word for that action! all hail the power of English!). So how you tell me?! I am so in need of some serious spanking. And my good for nothing friends, semua pun macam ni wan. No help at all. Ive got this classmate who has already finished her conclusion for her fyp and I? am still stuck at chapter 3 & 4.

Yes i am a loser. Many times over.

Chillis. We (me n kylie) were discussing that there are places (eateries) that requires the presense of a certain friend of ours to be present with us before embarking on our once a month glutton trip to these places. One of those happens to be Chillis, another one would be Sushi Zanmai. We were contemplating where to have our lunch this afternoon, and kylie suggested chillis. The reaction was so immediate. And the both of us said "nah, that place have to wait for florence wan"...and the same thing happened when we were looking at sushi zanmai.

Florencetina Chew Yu Mey. Our eating-at-expensive-places kaki.

I thank God for my mum really. I think she's the best mum i could ever have. She likes to compare how fat i am with her aneroxic-like-body. She makes cookies and calls them "shit cookies". She keeps on gossiping non stop for about 2 hours about her dance classmates. She talks in a really loud voice that makes others listening think she's scolding me (like most chinese blooded mums from hakka families). She will text me and ask me questions like what is ">.<"???? And i keep thinking, aww man, im gonna be coming back to this when i graduate. As much as i like to say she's really annoying, i love her to bits for being like this.

Maybe ill be able to be like her when i grow up. *big grin*

Kylie can be really unpredictable and it drives me crazy, times when i need him to be a darling hes normally quite stonned and "duhhhh" or even to the point of being a real rectum, and likewise when i dont need him to be nice to me..like this afternoon, I came across a book i have been waiting for at mph. It was the giant expensive version, not the small cheaper paper back one. I told him i really liked it, and he offered to buy it for me. I was thinking, huh? its a whopping 70 bucks, and i can get it for less than half when the paper back version comes out so wat the heck. Sweet, but unnecessary. Okay i dont know why im even talking about this, i guess he's just trying to be a darling.

Salt was good, as good as i expected it to be. I enjoyed it very much. Its just very comforting and confidence boosting when you watch female fatales punch and kick guys ass. Every now and then, i enjoy watching movies like these, the world needs more of these women. To show guys their place! Hiyak!

Anyway, gonna post up a few pictures later, these are actually quite overdue, i can nvr harap ppl like ponneey to upload them wan, she'll take like forever!!! Oh and my class'll be having a photoshoot this monday!! CANT WAIT!! Yes, i really need to change my fb profile picture soon, its so tiring having to look at my stupid face every time i log in.


Till then.


ps. these were taken during visha's suprise bday thing.

Mini goodness

A month plus and counting...

sigh...

Me n You

On msn messenger:

[KyleGuangPin] - [Acoustaephyerie] says:

jipuuut

ni wan diablo

ni pok diablo!

qu pok taaaaaa!!!

I say:

ok dear

i love you too




How we keep the fire going.
lols.




Peace.

Graduation pictures

After our exceptionally good run through those 2 years plus, it was finally time to take our graduation pictures.


















I dont know how I even felt, mix feelings i guess. Partly sad that everything is coming to an end, partly excited at what's gonna happen next.


















The only things that kept me from tearing a little was probably the fact that I still hadn't gotten off that huge workload off my chest.


















And I dont know how to say this but, my face looks worse for wear. Seriously, it looks so tired, you'll immediately feel tired looking at it. Yup thats me now.


















I was in the LRT on the way to kl sentral on tuesday, a few days ago.












There were so many people around me dressed in formal work wear obviously on their way to their work place.












And the more i stared at them, the more i was freaking myself out. I mean in a few months time Ill look exactly like that. Another lifeless individual trudging through "adulthood". Aww man.












And to make things worse, my mum keeps bugging me to go look for a job. *groans* hmm, now I know why some people go on studying. I mean if it keeps me from having to work and earn money and those crap I dont think i mind.












Anyways, like everyone else, Im going to have to go through that sooner or later no matter how much I whine. Damn it la, I dont wanna grow up. And like I was telling my friends earlier this week, this whole whether-we-will-graduate-or-not thing (which we definitely will, lecturers are just scaring us) is just the start of our worries, there are bigger ones coming our way, and Im not sure im prepared for that in any way.






Damn it la.

My weekend alone. well not really.

I went out with candice and her prince. We watched Despicable Me. And i can honestly tell you I havent had so much fun since...well since a long time ago.

This is such a "MUST WATCH". Dunno why for some weird reason whenever the little yellow beans (Refer to appendix A & B) start talking (they mumble gibberish) i keep thinking of florence. HAH!

Anyways, they're SHOOOOOOOOOOCUUUUUUUUUTEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Really, they're small, and they are handy in dark places (can be used as glow sticks), they're yellow and they mumble nonsense which will most definitely make you laugh.

I wish and wish i could take home one, or a few. Omg, they're so cutee!!!! ARGH!

Appendix A











Appendix B















And here is Gru and Agnes, the cutest girl you can ever meet. Really, she has this really cute round face and big big eyes..omg, i wish i had her as a sister. I would spoil really bad. Teehee.











Too bad kyle wasnt with me. They're all huddled up in the middle of a crowd at Haji Ghany waiting for the match. Bah. I dont even know why they bother, no matter who wins or lose, it doesnt make a difference anyways. Hmm.

Shopping with mum tomorrow. Hopefully i get back in time to finish editing my chapter 2. Soh's waiting for it. Sigh. I was just reminded just now that i have to start looking for a job....*groans*

DO I REALLY HAVE TO?!!!




I mean, cant i just stay in university.

Chrysanthemum?

We are in the middle of semester. The end is looming near ever so slowly. I am mid way through my dreaded final year project. But Ive passed the tough part, the rest should be a breeze.

I was talking to my supervisor the other day, he told me to ask kyle to cut his hair. Hah, fat chance. I don't even like him short haired, it makes him look like a sissy. Anyways, time spent together for us are precious, there's always more and more work to bog us down. We don't even have time to argue anymore. Sigh.

Dang, I'm gonna miss all this.

On the way back just now, the train's air conditioning decided to take a rest and left our whole carriage sweltering in the heat. I don't even want to describe to you the beautiful words coming out of my mouth through out the journey. I tried to get some shut-eye but due to the heat I couldn't. Thank God it was only for the second half of the journey.

I came back alone this time, my other half was whining about "a lot of work blah blah blah"..Well, more time alone for me, and i get to go back on tuesday morning.

On a lighter note, I'm getting a new phone! Yay. Good riddance. Should be the last one to go. I wish i could say Im getting something cool like an iphone but nope, ill stick to those good ol chocolate bar phones you see everyday. Yup, nothing interesting, but then again, one day i tell you..one day...*looks off into the horizon*

Oh and did i mention ive got wifi in my house now?!! EEK!! Yeah, i know its nothing big, its just wifi..but its SO DARN COOL!!!!! hahahahahah quite jakun..

Well i shall stop here.





Till then.

Here we go.

Undone.
Everything undone.

"What ifs"

"What if's"

Life is always filled with them. They are the possible outcomes if things were different.

Okay, that sounded quite stupid. Hah, this is what happens when i try to be philosophical. A trait i never inherited from either parents.

I get really jealous of those dudes and duddettes whom philosophical phrases just spill out of them like its no big deal. People like "so" and "so". Yeah well, it makes them sound really smart. Hah, i tell you i cant even say something philosophical to save my life.

Alright, so im having my holidays now, and while im here trying to get some much needed rest, my parents are constantly nagging me about what will i be doing after i graduate...and that is "if" I graduate. Ive got this friend who gets to go overseas to study Performing Arts. Sigh. I wished i had that chance but no siree, thats not gonna happen in this lifetime of mine i think. Its always been a dream, really. And then to head up a school of performing arts here and minusing all the stupid traditional dances malaysians only know how to perform during Independence day and stuff. Boring, really.

No im talking about the stuff that people compete for internationally, and i tell you ive never heard of our fellow countrymen taking up titles of those sort. Its kinda of a pity i tell you, all the talent and no oppurtunity.

Anyway, by God's grace. I shall do that if given the chance.

Coming back to what i was talking about before, i must needs finish my stupid degree and head homeward first. Then we'll see how.

Mum's learning Hungarian and Chinese dances, not to mention ballet. Can you imagine that? Damn.

Its quite scary, because she's developing muscles that are beginning to look like the ones on Madonna. Its not a pretty sight.

And given the stupid situation at home now, i try my best to stay out of home. Sigh, why cant we all be normal people? I will never understand.

Well and good, Im going Johor next monday. And glad for that respite. Dont exactly know when i can go back there anyway. Hopefully a few more times before our last semester ends if time permits. My friends are the closes thing i have to family these times. I appreciate their beings so much I feel I will never be able to get through university life without them. Sometimes, i even feel they love me more than any boyfriend of mine. Yes, they mean that much.

Mum told me, the friends you meet in college and university will last you a lifetime so treasure them.

Quite true.

She still keeps in touch with hers from back in university.

The weather has been pleasant enough for my taste since coming back from that god forsaken town and i mean that literally. I actually like the rain, it brings the cool evening breeze.

And as much as spontanity is my cup of tea, i believe compromise is too when i absolutely need to. Im sorry.



So here as far as i go this time round.


ps. I dont care what is said, you will not play a part in our "merry making" anymore. We leave you to your own devices. In other words, "Screw You!". Life's a bitch aint it.


Till then.