You can i also can..

Did I drive you away?
I know what you'll say.
You'll say, "Oh, sing one we know"
But I promise you this,
I'll always look out for you.
That's what I'll do.

And sing "oh"
I'll sing "oh"

My heart is yours.
It's you that I hold on to.
That's what I'll do.

But I know I was wrong,
And I won't let you down.
(Oh yeah, oh yeah, oh yeah, yeah I will, yes I will…)

But I'll sing "oh"
I cry "oh"

Yeah I saw sparks,
Yeah I saw sparks,
And I saw sparks,
Yeah I saw sparks,
Singing out.

La, la, la, la, oh…
La, la, la, la, oh…
La, la, la, la, oh…
La, la, la, la, oh…


Sparks
Coldplay

Sunset
Hate it or love it

A late one..

This just came just now.




















I cant believe you guys actually got me this. Maybe i have been ranting about it a little too much.
Its just what my small little hostel-look-alike room needs.
Thanks guys,
i could never ask for better.

You monkeys know what i need.

So i turned 21..

A few updates on what happened for my 21st birthday..I wasnt too hyped about it..but yeah i did go through the motions. Dont we all. Golden key or not.

Here are a few highlights of the weekend.















Friday, had an early birthday celebration with the gang at Porto Romano at TTDI. We were so stuffed by the end of the evening and there i was worrying in the beginning whether there was enough food.

And the gelato..mmm..so AWESOME!!















And the american chocolate cake. They just HAD to embarrass me in front of everyone.

Still, thanks and i really appreciate it guys.
And i knew you were talking about the cake when u called ian my dear atiqah.















We had lamb and seafood and pizza and pasta and salad. Truly satisfying. Too bad they didnt have Baileys Irish cream, i really wanted that. Ah oh well.

Then there was the party with my relatives. You know, the only reason i agreed to that was because mum told me i would receive a great many 'ang pows'. So heck yeah, why not. Hhahaha.

*Teruk kan..

Anyway, here's a picture of the whole family..erm, not really whole but yeah those who came la.

I was the photographer.

Bleh, everyone looks so chinese.
Memang chinese to the max.
















And finally, the biggest highlight. The present i got from my beloved boyfriend.

Sony Ericsson W980!
A new handphone with 8gb internal memory!
Theres this stupid sensor thingy..haha so cool!

Seriously
What more can a girl ask for.

I was too shock and busy sobbing my eyes out to even look at it that night..damn malu lo, where got people receive present then cry wan. dumb dumb. And i only started to look through the stuff that were inside the phone box the next day.

Aih, even my parents never bought me a phone.
So sad. My first phone was bought by myself with my hard earned cash.

I couldnt ask for a better person by my side.
You really made my day.
Thanks Ian.

















Whoish..
still cant believe it..















You give the best suprises dearest.
Here's to you, the guy i told myself id never date.
muaxx

And to all those who wished me, thank you so much!!
I will remember them.


Okay, back to assignments and kampar.




Bahh..

Y-ou

Y-ou, would tell me all sorts of weird stuff. Make me laugh at just about anything. Give me that goofy grin i used to love so much.

Y-ou, like to "ban" cute a lot. Texted me 24/7. Even called when i was out of the country.

Y-ou, one of the best player ive seen. Impressed me so much i loved it when played songs for me. Too bad i never got the chance to watch you perform.

Y-ou, took so much out of me when we were done. Thought I was going to break. Thought i wouldnt be able to stand the separation.

But here we are, life goes on.

Y-ou...

Talk sexy, do me like that...

Whats with all the licking and the catsuit? Looks like she's a little desperate. What do you think?

Something Happens IN Everybody.

Shine camp was from the 20th of March to the 22nd of March. It was a puberty camp for the std 6xers and form 1s. Held at Peacehaven Genting.

I remember that morning, I had to take the 5am ktm from Kampar to KL Sentral before taking the Lrt to Asia Jaya station where my mum would pick me and drop me off at church. And i was so tired the day before cuz we had psycholiguistics assignment to finish, and i didnt really sleep.

Grumbling all the way down to kl and up to Genting i did. Was worried to death about my session preparation and whether it was good enough or not. Nanti not good enough then kena marah by boss purdy low..haha

Anyway, i was more worried about my sleep deprivation and whether i would fall asleep while standing and holding the mic. That would be a interesting sight.

So the 3 days came and went and i was still standing after the whole camp. Even went out with jian for a movie before i came back yesterday night.

Phew.

I miss those bunch of brats already. Sigh.

Well, here are the pictures i took. Few but meaningful non the less.


































Second night, after dinner.







































Then some pictures with zhiwei's beloved domokun.















E6 cg. Jonathan, Benjamin, Aaron, Eve, Christie Lim, Christie Hay.
Ian, Jeremy, Nat and me.





























Not forgetting some sampat pictures.






























And then E4,5,6 combined.

Thats all.




Now im going to sleep.
Till then

Eye candy

He's so gorgeous, it hurts to look at him.
Sigh.
I love.

This is Aaron Johnson by the way.

Malaysia Boleh.

Got these from an email sent by a friend. Pretty interesting pictures, check it out.



























































Malaysia memang boleh lah..
Sigh..


Over and out.

All in a nutshell.

Life is just one damn thing after another.
Elbert Hubbart


Till then.

Mari kita emo

This is interesting.


Stupid weather. Its ruining my mood.

And i miss you..

Just an update, i finally did my 8 laps! yay! Mum said it made some difference..well, better than nothing. So now twice a week it is. *smiles*

And than i noticed something, everytime i come back from kampar, mum or dad will definitely say that my face or arms looks fatter. Its not a pleasant experience, especially when dad makes to squeeze my arms everytime while exclaiming how fat ive gotten. And you know why?

ITS BECAUSE OF THE DARN FOOD IVE BEEN EATING IN KAMPAR!

Well, mum likes to keep the house in an "understocked" condition so that me and my brother dont develope the habit of munching all the time. But when i go back, the eating starts and the fats start accumulating..aih

But try as i might i cant not eat, especially in classes..as boring as the ones like journalism and syntax & morph. Know what? I blame my resolve. Think its not good enough.

Crystal just told me she has to go back next week to get her formal clothes to prepare for the presentations coming the following week. Darn her. Hmm..nola..I love you crystal! ^^

Shopped a little this afternoon. Bought some clothes from Pull&Bear(wth does that mean anw). They were having a clearance sale, and since no one was at home, i wanted to go amuse myself. Ian? You hearing this? You're gonna be paying for all these next time..*winks*

No one's at home most of the time, seriously i miss my brother like boleh mampus. I miss that brat so much. Damn. And he hardly msges. Stupid brat. Now the house's like empty most of the time. Parents are out when im back and we only see each other at night. Really miss those times when everyone was still home and it was more noisier.

But anyway, he's coming home soon i think. And the first thing i wanna do is to take him to the cyber cafe at dj and play left 4 dead with him. Hah. Now i know why everyone goes to that freaking place. Cuz their blardy computers are so good! hah.

Anyway, i need to sleep already. Gotta go church tmr morning.
Goodnight.

Till then.

2 hearts broken. 2 close friends of mine. Seriously whats wrong with everyone now? Well guys in these 2 particular cases.

Guys can be real jerks sometimes. I know girls are just as bad. But everyone know most of the time girls take it harder than guys do. Whenever i hear of all the bullshit guys do i really wish i could do something.

I know i have my own share of complications in the past and i wish i could do something to change it. Believe me i do. I regret it to no end, its my fault and i know he doesn't deserve that at all.

Well , at least an explanation. It wont hurt to do that. I think my 2 friends deserve that and then whatever shit you both wanna do later on is your own business.

Certain things kinda suck, like dating your ex after breaking up with your girlfriend and then hiding the whole matter. And like trying to cover up and denying all the rumours(which are true) about you with another girl when you just broke up with your girlfriend.

Of course its so much better when you dont meet up much, especially long distance relationships.
How convenient. I remember someone told me this. Sigh.

When i see my friends in this state i feel the pain they are going through, especially when they try to hide it. They lose sleep, appetite. Their faces are more pale and there are more defined dark circles under thier eyes. And then sometimes i remember my own break up. And how much emotional trauma both parties went through. If only i could turn back time and undo things.

Well after that break up i know i certainly don't want to go through that crap ever ever again. Im thankful for what i have now and i certainly dont want it to go away.

A note of advise to those who want to part ways, if you can work things out, please do. If you cant, then try for a peaceful break, there isnt a perfect way of breaking up but still, trying explaning and not make the decision on your own. Believe me, it works.

Till then.

There..i like it..what do you think? ^^

Time for some shut eye now..

Goodnight.

Was doing a little blog hopping just now and im like" aih what the hell's wrong with me?" My blog's so darn girly for goodness sake! I think i better change it back..

It's like i went through this girly-blog phase..well, lesson learnt..im gonna change it back now..

WHAT WAS I THINKING?!?!!!!

Comparisons are easily done
Once you've had a taste of perfection
Like an apple hanging from a tree
I picked the ripest one
I still got the seed

You said move on
Where do I go
I guess second best
Is all I will know

Cause when I'm with him
I am thinking of you
Thinking of you
What you would do if
You were the one
Who was spending the night
Oh I wish that I
Was looking into your eyes

You're like an Indian summer
In the middle of winter
Like a hard candy
With a surprise center
How do I get better
Once I've had the best
You said there's
Tons of fish in the water
So the waters I will test

He kissed my lips
I taste your mouth
He pulled me in
I was disgusted with myself

Cause when I'm with him
I am thinking of you
Thinking of you
What you would do if
You were the one
Who was spending the night
Oh I wish that I
Was looking into...

You're the best
And yes I do regret
How I could let myself
Let you go
Now the lesson's learned
I touched it I was burned
Oh I think you should know

Cause when I'm with him
I am thinking of you
Thinking of you
What you would do if
You were the one
Who was spending the night
Oh I wish that I
Was looking into your eyes
Looking into your eyes
Looking into your eyes
Oh won't you walk through
And bust in the door
And take me away
Oh no more mistakes
Cause in your eyes I'd like to stay...

Thinking of you
One of the boys
Katy Perry

Time to update the ol blog again..been really busy with uni, as usual. Came back at 12 something last night after an hour plus of 140km per hour. That was koon leng and her crazy driving. Id be suprise if we never met an accident whenever we're sitting in her car. Phew.

Had a draft to finish, for my academic writing assignment. And being the procrastinator i am, i didnt finish it earlier and was stressing over it last night at 1am..(due date was monday = today). Didnt even started it at all, went to sleep and woke up late for my 8am class, so no class for me. Opted to go for the 11am one. With no one to fetch me and my bicycle in crystal's place, i had to walk to uni under the scorching sun. Yeap and i arrived with blisters on my foot and a raging temper to boot.

Went through the whole day accompanied by my stomach cramps. Seriously i felt like whacking someone.

But nevermind, im okay, im okay..

Good thing earlier i was told that the submission of my draft can be postpone to wednesday if i wanted to. one problem solved.

The bad news? I wasnt concentrating fully during psycholinguistics and i miss 8 laps again! Sometimes i wished i didnt have to have menstruation. AIHHH Its really such a burden. I mean, why cant the guys have it?

Syafiq better bring my Mcds soon..ive only had few slices of mango and bread for lunch and im starving. Ahhhh..double cheeeeeseburger. One really does appreaciate food when one has spend a certain amount of time living in a place like Kampar.

Kinda miss my home la, this stupid place is really getting to me and i dont think ill be able to go home this weekend either. Assignments are pilling up and im a little sick of them. Its already week 7! AIHH Time passes so fast, wish i could slow it down..and i get emo so much more often now..maybe its because everyone around me are like that as well..

AND FACEBOOK IS REALLY SCREWING WITH MY CONNECTION!!!! ARGHH!!!!

Last weekend we were at the pj campus for the undergraduate seminar..wasnt much..didnt really like it..boring presenters..yada yada yada...

But we had a great time of bonding and fellowship, my friends and i.

Doing mask

And taking pictures

And then the undergraduate seminar at pj campus saturday morning.

Went for drinks at Lounge, Heritage Row later that night.

And then sunday after our wash and blow.

And back assignments and Ghany and left4dead..hmm..i wish my weekends were longer somehow.

And im still waiting for my mcds.

Argh...


Till then..
muaxx

You stir up my natural emotions
Make me feel like dirt (I’m hurt)
And if I start a commotion
I run the risk of losing you
What is worse

Ever fallen in love with someone
Ever fallen in love, in love with someone
Ever fallen in, in love with someone you shouldn’t have fallen in love with

I can’t see much of future
Unless we find out who’s to blame, what a shame
And we won’t be together much longer
Unless we realize that we are the same

Ever fallen in love with someone
Ever fallen in love, in love with someone
Ever fallen in, in love with someone you shouldn’t have fallen in love with

Ever fallen in love with someone
Ever fallen in love, in love with someone
Ever fallen in, in love with someone you shouldn’t have fallen in love with

You stir up my natural emotions
And make me feel like dirt (I’m a mess)
And if I start a commotion
I only end up losing you
What is worse

Ever fallen in love with someone
Ever fallen in love, in love with someone
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Ever fallen in, in love with someone you shouldn’t have fallen in love with

Ever fallen in love with someone
Ever fallen in love, in love with someone
Ever fallen in, in love with someone you shouldn’t have fallen in love with

Ever fallen in love with someone
Ever fallen in love, in love with someone
Ever fallen in, in love with someone you shouldn’t have fallen in love with

Ever fallen in love with someone
Ever fallen in love, in love with someone
Ever fallen in, in love with someone you shouldn’t have fallen in love with
Shouldn’t have fallen in love with
Ever fallen in love with someone you shouldn’t have fallen in love with

Ever Fallen in Love
The Stiff Dylans

We take three steps forward and three steps back,
She says "I don't like the way you're dressed"
So then four words later, she takes four back
She says "I don't like the way you're tryin' your best to impress"
You win.
Everything you do,
Makes me wanna run
Home, will you get me going
Home, will you get me going
Home, home

Give me what I want,
Give me what I want,
Give me what I want,
Give me,
What I, want
Want,
Give me what I want,
Give me what I want,
Give me what I want,
Give me,
What I, want
Want,

Glass half empty, glass half full,
I'd you've got some catching up to do
Your glass half empty, glass half full,
I'd say you've got some catching up to do
Best to, impress.
You win.
Everything you do,
Makes me wanna run
Home, will you get me going
Home, will you get me going
Home, home

Give me what I want,
Give me what I want,
Give me what I want,
Give me,
What I, want
Want,
Give me what I want,
Give me what I want,
Give me what I want,
Give me,
What I, want
Want,

What is it you want me to know?
I give up on you
What is it you want me to know?
Ooh ooh, ooh ooh
What is it you want me to know?
I give up on you
What is it you want me to know?
Ooh ooh, ooh ooh

Give me what I want,
Give me what I want,
Give me what I,

Want, want, want, want

Give me what I want,
Give me what I want,
Give me what I want,
Give me,
What I, want
Want, want.


Give me what i want
Kids in Glass Houses
Smart Casual

Mr. Sandman showing his beam, when he walks into the room the walls lean in to listen
Surf out blank waves, clicking back and forth like old headlights, sniffing bottled you again.
Head like a steel trap, wish I didn't, I didn't, I didn't, I didn't, I didn't, I didn't, I didn't, I don't...
Just want to be a footnote in someone else's happiness.

Does your husband know the way that the sunshine gleams from your wedding band?
Does he know the way, does he know the way of the crickets that would convince me to call it a night?

I will never end up like him
Behind my back, I already am.
Keep a calendar, this way you will always know.

The last time you came through,
Oh darling, I know what you're going through.
The last time you came through,
Oh darling, oh darling, oh darling...

Tempest in a teacup,
Get unique.
Peroxide Princess shine like shark teeth
It's a sign, (it's a sign)
It's a sign, (it's a sign)
It's a sign, what if you peaked early.

Does your husband know the way that the sunshine gleams from your wedding band?
Does he know the way, does he know the way of the crickets that would convince me to call it a night?

Does he, does he know the way to worship our love?
Does your husband know the way that the sunshine gleams from your wedding band?

Well, I will never end up like him.
Behind my back, I already am.
Keep a calendar, this way you will always know.

Last time you came through,
Oh darling, I know what you're going through.
Last time you came through,
Oh darling, oh darling, oh darling...

Does your husband know? Does your husband know? Does your husband know? Oh oh oh, whoa-oh...
Does he know? Does he know, does he know? Whoa-ah-ah-ah-ah, oh oh, oh

I will never end up like him.
Behind my back I already am.
Keep a calendar, this way you will always know.

Oh, the last time you came through,
Oh darling, I know what you're going through.
The last time you came through,
Oh, darling I know what you're going through.


Headfirst Slide Into Coopestown On A Bad Bet
Fall Out Boy
Folie A Deux