Sunday, October 15, 2006

Self pity is a sin?

I feel like throwing up now
dad's away in the US
mum's out at some fren's house
im listening to fearless by building 429, nice song
my tap exam is tomorow.
and im freaking nervous
i just cant sit still
eventhough i know my routines
im petrified

fetched that idiot of a brother to work just now
and some fella honked on me
just because i stopped in time to keep from banging into the front car
people can be real asses when they want to
and to make things worst
there was a big fat jam on the way back home.
since young whenever there was a jam
i would always wished that some how or rather i would have some super powers
and then with a wave of my hand
all the cars would just pile up at the side of the road
and then the road would be clear all the way
looks like that'll never ever happen
so much for silly childhood fantasies

yesterday night this samoan pastor whos looks like "the rock" came to preach
great fella
believe me
he really does look like the rock
skin colour
size
looks
then before that
they had this mime
it was a part of the mime i saw when i attended the
MV Doulos youth international night at Pjefc
the one i saw was much longer
the one they did yesterday was just a small part
but interesting and good non the less

it was about this guy dreaming
and then in his dream
he was standing on a platform
and then at his feet there were a lot of hands reaching out to him
it actually looks abit creepy
with the sounds and all
yea well
so he tried to reach out to pull them out
he only succeded pulling up three
as he was trying to save the another one
there was a loud and eerie scream
that made all the hair on the back of our neck stand
and all the people reaching out to the fella just fell down and died
yea
after that
everyone was feeling uneasy and creeped out
haha

well
this scream actually does happen everyday
because there are loads of people who die everyday
its just that you and i are not aware of them
so its up to us Christians to make sure that that doesnt happen
well, its our duty anyway.
^^

wow
this song is really good
map of the problematique - muse

yea
when i got to class on last wednessday
my lecturer told me that this sem is going to be a long sem
yea
imagine how i felt at that moment
i could feel all my friend's eyes on me
burning holes on my shirt
because before that i told most of them that its a short sem
aha
haih
so embaressing
and i like told the whole MA comittee
that i have to stop for awhile and to concentrate on my studies
as a result of that
i have to pull out of the organizing committee for camp
darn it
but good thing i havent told Pr Foo yet

WARGH!!!!!
!@#$%^&%#@$^#$@$@$^&^#@!%&*
!@#@@%#$%$%**&(&*)*((%%@$!@

*calms down*
hmm
yea
that fella who told me it was a short sem is so gonna get it from me
and he even told em the exam dates
haih
i feel like a stupid fool
thanks to that smartass
ish
oh well
at least i dont have to worry bout not being able to finish studying my subs
now i can take my time
and then i dont have to rush my assignments and work

what can i say about my lecturers
they're much more serious than the first sem ones definately
and most of them expect us to be punctual
attend every lecture and tutorial
not to TALK during lecture
haha
yea
its only the first week and i already got caught
it was during writing for mass comm lecture
but i wasnt the only one talking
and the lecturer so happen to be my tutor as well
ahh just great
she's probably gonna remember my face
and keep picking on me

that was just suave shu ern,
nice way to get the lecturer to notice you.

then there was this one who talked as if the class were just stones
i couldnt detect any emotion in her
and as the result
the whole lecture was so boring
ugh
actually the subject was alright
but she was just making it boring
i think if it wasnt for the videos she showed us
everyone would probably be asleep

there was another lecturer
everytime she told a joke
when we didnt respond
she would say that we were all slow
aha
nice
and the way she talks
sounds a lot like my mum
long winded and all the lame jokes
i mean
have you heard someone like ur mum or dad tell a joke
especially when the ones who are listening are young people?
gosh
it can be amusing sometimes
but then, when its not
its just terrible
^^
ah well
better not to gossip so much
haha

Last night i watched Rob b hood
again!
abit sien dy now
but then again
Jackie Chan
he never ceases to amuse me with those
crazy stunts of his
hmm
he's so old already
but still a great actor
and will be until a very long time i think
i can still remember the first show if his that i saw
i think it was the police story
yea
since then
i was hooked
ive watched most of his shows
alwasy featuring some really crazy stunts
hmm, guess
he will always be the best when it come to all those crazy stunts in chinese movies

ahh
mum's back,
and she's already started talking about her friends
yack yack yack
better stop
wonder how long have i been at this
hmm
anyway i need black ankle length socks for tomorow
guess i have to go buy them
ish
another trip out again
and its raining
ah dang
oh well
till then
^^