"What if's"
Life is always filled with them. They are the possible outcomes if things were different.
Okay, that sounded quite stupid. Hah, this is what happens when i try to be philosophical. A trait i never inherited from either parents.
I get really jealous of those dudes and duddettes whom philosophical phrases just spill out of them like its no big deal. People like "so" and "so". Yeah well, it makes them sound really smart. Hah, i tell you i cant even say something philosophical to save my life.
Alright, so im having my holidays now, and while im here trying to get some much needed rest, my parents are constantly nagging me about what will i be doing after i graduate...and that is "if" I graduate. Ive got this friend who gets to go overseas to study Performing Arts. Sigh. I wished i had that chance but no siree, thats not gonna happen in this lifetime of mine i think. Its always been a dream, really. And then to head up a school of performing arts here and minusing all the stupid traditional dances malaysians only know how to perform during Independence day and stuff. Boring, really.
No im talking about the stuff that people compete for internationally, and i tell you ive never heard of our fellow countrymen taking up titles of those sort. Its kinda of a pity i tell you, all the talent and no oppurtunity.
Anyway, by God's grace. I shall do that if given the chance.
Coming back to what i was talking about before, i must needs finish my stupid degree and head homeward first. Then we'll see how.
Mum's learning Hungarian and Chinese dances, not to mention ballet. Can you imagine that? Damn.
Its quite scary, because she's developing muscles that are beginning to look like the ones on Madonna. Its not a pretty sight.
And given the stupid situation at home now, i try my best to stay out of home. Sigh, why cant we all be normal people? I will never understand.
Well and good, Im going Johor next monday. And glad for that respite. Dont exactly know when i can go back there anyway. Hopefully a few more times before our last semester ends if time permits. My friends are the closes thing i have to family these times. I appreciate their beings so much I feel I will never be able to get through university life without them. Sometimes, i even feel they love me more than any boyfriend of mine. Yes, they mean that much.
Mum told me, the friends you meet in college and university will last you a lifetime so treasure them.
Quite true.
She still keeps in touch with hers from back in university.
The weather has been pleasant enough for my taste since coming back from that god forsaken town and i mean that literally. I actually like the rain, it brings the cool evening breeze.
And as much as spontanity is my cup of tea, i believe compromise is too when i absolutely need to. Im sorry.
So here as far as i go this time round.
ps. I dont care what is said, you will not play a part in our "merry making" anymore. We leave you to your own devices. In other words, "Screw You!". Life's a bitch aint it.
Till then.
