My dear girl,
There are some times when you just feel like giving up, and asking...God? Can i just start over? Of course, that doesnt happen la. But then, sometimes you just feel so screwed up and messed up that you just feel like throwing everything away and screaming bloody murder to anyone or thing that comes within a 2 metre radius. But then life for everyone around you just looks so good and you feel like maybe you havent tried your best, maybe and just maybe, things will get better after awhile. But, why are you even doing this? Why try? You always end up stuck at the same place.
I also dunno how long i can stand myself being in this condition. I cant sleep at night, im always anxious and restless.
You how sometimes you feel like you're always alone in whatever you do? And people just dont seem to care anymore? Cuz they're just busy with whatever they're doing? Then you start to comfort yourself and think you "work" better alone. Well ive kindda learnt that when ever that happens it means that ive got to stop and reflect on whats going on, or im gonna crash and burn if i continue this nonsense.
You go around everyday putting a face and mask, hiding your true self cuz you're afraid of what people might say.
So why?
Ill tell you why. Because God loves's you. Its as simple as that. =)
So go out there and continue kicking asses.
Love,
Shu ern.
Anyway.
Have been reading a book recently, its called "Captivating" by John Eldredge and Stasi Eldredge. Beautifully written by this couple.
It talks about how every little girl has dreams of being swept up into a great adventure, of being the beautiful princess. Sadly, when women grow up, they are often swept up into a life filled merely with duty and demands. Many Christian women are tired, struggling under the weight of the pressure to be a "good servant," a nurturing caregiver, or a capable home manager.
And there are so many things i never realised myself having. For example, God created women to be beautiful, in His image. haha. And women reflect the "feminine" side of God. Seriously, God has a feminine side? Suprise? Yeah..i definately am..
Great book, cant wait to read the other one, "Wild at Heart" by the both of them as well, for men. haha, need to read like both sides wan ma right..=)
shu ern over and out.
