Balloons

Exams are over, second semester over. Great, now to get things sorted out. A much needed break in a week's time. Papers, cards, ribbons, wrappers.

But Im too lazy to get off my ass to do anything now. Just wanna sleep and sleep and never wake up.

Four subjects next semester, all Im thinking about now is 'How?!' I dont know but somehow or other I will finish it. Dont think I can bear another extra semester of this. I long for the day when all of these are over and I can look back and tell myself it was all worth it. Well at least I do have something to look forward to at the end. Yes, the next phase. A lot of new things. The point of life where I can tell myself Ive done well. Not exactly there yet but halfway. Yes halfway. My halfway is near.

Okay Shu Ern, press on.

T minus 14 days. I cant wait. All I need to finalise are the wrappers and finish up the draft for the plan and we're good to go. A random thing I notice about you, blue seems to be a favourite, why the shirt I bought you last year and this year looks the same! Checks and that same shade. And I even asked you a few times incredulously if you were really deciding on that but nope everything was lost on you. I hope by next year, you'll have grown some fashion sense. Like how the belt you wear to work does not match your jeans. *sighs*

Okay, second semester exams are up the next three days. Phew.

Im scared. I really am. What ifs and what ifs ringing around my head..

Finally after much worrying and hassling the dealer and supplier, this came today, was so surprised it came so fast. So worried that it might not arrived in time for me to present this when the time came. But they're really professional and were fast in helping me get my stuff and the shipping and courier service was free. However I did spend quite a lot on the present itself. Hmm wanna see whats inside?

So this is it. i hope you will like it. Took a huge chunk outta my savings and stuff but I know you will get a kick outta this. So yeah. Investing on you for your future pal, hope I didnt make any mistakes by get you the kit and the bag. 

My assignments are over. Finally. Thats second sem for me. Exams in two weeks, keep finding things to do that I actually dont do on normal circumstances. Your birthday, its quite big thing, what Im planning, hopefully it'll turn out the way I want it to. Cover was almost blown when I asked about the filter that day. Phew. I do wish sometimes I was in a position to grant you the dreams of your heart. I would do it in a heartbeat. But then again nothing beats getting something you've been working so hard for. The satisfying feeling is indeed like no other. I dont even dare to think of it sometimes, but 'please please God can I keep him please?' Okay then on to the planning, the gifts are on the way by now. And then theres the ukelele class I bought you. Wished I didnt bought it on a whim but Ive done it now so might as well make good use of it. I hope that this one will be a memorable one for you. More to come I hope.

Clean slate now. Dont know whether to be smug about it or not. At least we can re start again. On a lighter note, I was given balloons for my birthday. I can remember the happiness level sorta hit rooftop. I couldnt describe the emotion I was feeling when I saw you with them walking towards me when u came to get me. The look you gave me will forever be etched into memory.

You're the best. Literally.

Come down here, he said.

I cried the day you told me that you could see us older sitting in the garden surrounded by our brood of naughty children and a few cats and dogs chasing each other, not daring to dream and imagine that far after the disappointments Ive experienced. And when you said that after you retired you would go cycling round our neighbourhood with me at the back of your bicycle, It was then that I truly knew Ive found my happily ever after. 

Okay lah. Set. Lemme finish my masters first okay then we can plan again. I promise. With all my heart.