What a girl wants.

Look into her eyes

You can see she's crying out

She hides behind her smile

You can see the pain of doubt

And if you would hold her close

You could feel the brokenness inside

You would know she feels alone

She feels empty

She needs more than a hug on a holiday

She needs more than a smile on a Sunday

She's not looking for you to fix what's wrong

She really wants to know

Really wants to know she belongs

She needs more than a love song

Listen to her now

Broken is a beautiful sound

She's a little scared

She's afraid of falling further down

But maybe if you let her know

And gave her just a little hope

Somehow if she knew the truth

She'd come alive

She needs more than a hug on a holiday

She needs more than a smile on a Sunday

She's not looking for you to fix what's wrong

She really wants to know

Really wants to know she belongs

She needs more than a love song

In the end

We will learn

Actions speak louder then our words

She needs more than a hug on a holiday

She needs more than a smile on a Sunday

She's not looking for you to fix what's wrong

She really wants to know

Really wants to know she belongs

She needs more than a love song

Fireflight

More Than A Love Song

Just another hurdle.....

Im really drowning God.
Please save me.

Ti Amo.

You're unpredictable.
Its alright.
I love you.


Happy Valentines.

Optimistic-try

Think butterfly
Think butterfly
Think butterfly
Think butterfly
Think butterfly

Verge

Depths of desperation and despair

Its just the weight of the world.

Yes, bad things happen to everyone. I guess its just timing. And well, not everything should be seen as "bad" in a way. Someone told me, "its just how you look at it". Another one said, "learn as much as you can from it". And then, "running away wont solve the problem, an neither is crying and whinning over it".

Even my friends agreed with me, this has just been a sucky week. But then again, everytime after a heavy downpour, the sun peeks out behind grey clouds and a few rays of light shows itself, telling everyone the "worse" is over.

And then we start all over again, preparing for the next strike.

I guess what i learn from this time is you can never know how things might change, even if you think you've got it all figured out. Sometimes harping on and on about your problem might just turn it from bad to worse.

Mum told me, a true friend is one who keeps your best interests at heart even at their own expense.

My boyfriend told me, you have learn how to be positive even if things turn ugly.

My close friends tell me, its not worth letting go something you've been building for many years just because conflicts arise. Deal with it and move on.

I am a very very negative person, sometimes i would rather believe the worse about someone than focus on the good points.

That sucks, i know.

Anyway, time to close those doors and open up new ones. Hmm, then again maybe i should have done that a long time ago, things might not have to get so complicated now.

Oh well, enough with the what-ifs.



Till then

Undone

Undone, undone, undone.
Every stroke.


Not worth getting mad over it,
because its not right to begin with.

The big F

Fuck you.

Now i know.

We should do that again sometime..

Rascal Flatts - My Wish

I hope the days come easy and the moments pass slow,
and each road leads you where you want to go,
and if you're faced with a choice, and you have to choose,
I hope you choose the one that means the most to you.
and if one door opens to another door closed,
I hope you keep on walkin' 'til you find the window,
if it's cold outside,
show the world the warmth of your smile,
but more than anything, more than anything,

My wish, for you, is that this life becomes all that you want it to,
your dreams stay big, your worries stay small,
You never need to carry more than you can hold,
and while you're out there getting where you're getting to,
I hope you know somebody loves you, and wants the same things too,
Yeah, this, is my wish.

I hope you never look back, but ya never forget,
all the ones who love you, in the place you left,
I hope you always forgive, and you never regret,
and you help somebody every chance you get,
Oh, you find God's grace, in every mistake,
and always give more then you take.

But more than anything, Yeah, and more than anything,

My wish, for you, is that this life becomes all that you want it to,
your dreams stay big, and your worries stay small,
You never need to carry more than you can hold,
and while you're out there getting where you're getting to,
I hope you know somebody loves you, and wants the same things too,
Yeah, this, is my wish.

My wish, for you, is that this life becomes all that you want it to,
your dreams stay big, your worries stay small,
You never need to carry more than you can hold,
and while you're out there getting where you're getting to,
I hope you know somebody loves you, and wants the same things too,
Yeah, this, is my wish.
this is my wish
i hope you know somebody loves you
may all your dreams stay big
(Repeat)
(Chorus)



For you,
all the best.

I clicked the "new post" icon, placed my fingers on the keyboard and started typing.

Thoughts are running through my head like they always do, my ribs hurt like hell after yesterday's workout, heck, even my feet hurt. See im trying this new thing where i workout like twice a week. Well, i know that isnt enough at all, but then looking at my full schedule i dont think i can fit in anymore. But mum has been complaining of my lack of physical workout, she thinks im growing fat *shudders*, so i think i better start working those long forgotten muscles. A little of cardio here and there should do the trick. I still wont be able to start running though, with my feet still injured and all. And i should cut down on the bad stuff i use to take like cookies, biscuits, soft drinks, PRAWN CRACKERS!...yeah, the whole lot. Well, since then, the junk food in my house has started piling up, so feel free to drop by and help my mum finish them. *winks*

Tests are coming in by the dozens...no, not dozens, but still i have like 3 mid terms this week. 40% weih! Dun play play..And on top of that, cg duties just started as well. Haih, and then now and then, ive got different things to do, this week will be something, then another week will be another thing. During last week's zone meeting, we've decided to do the Stay-Out camp like we did last year for the std 6 xers. And then

Purdy: Shu ern, you be in charge okay?
Shu ern: Ermmmm.....okay la..i guess....*looks sheepish*

Here, we go again...^^

Just today, i realize I dont even have time to catch with my babe next door, may ann, i havent seen her in weeks. Bumped into her at piramid this afternoon after a wonderful session of Shogun. So i told myself ill see her on wednesday if possible..and hope i dont have to ffk her again..sorry may ann... And there's the Kampar thingy, prayed and prayed as hard as i could but in the end i still had to go to that god-forsaken place and away from all my beloved friends and stuff. Sobs, well, like people always say, look at the bright side hor?

Ive been planning something just recently, hoping that it'll turn out well, collaborating with people im not familiar with is just plain weird. No offense what so ever, i didnt even think they'd call me. Well, just so you know, it isnt easy, and it is stressful, and u know ill turn into a maniac under stress.


You better appreciate it you punk.
Growls.


ohya, before i forget..Happy Birthday to you too punk.


shu ern over and out.

The Dreaded HOLIDAYS

Feeling like crap.

I hate it when its like this.

You know that feeling you get when you can actually do something about something but at the same time you just cant and refuse to?

I want to do something about it, believe me, i really do, and im running out of excuses but then i just cant bring myself to. Maybe its time to stop, since this is going no where.

I miss those times when i was such an emo kid. Things were easier then.




















Shut up and get out,
Stop ruining me.

everybody's got their problems
everybody says the same thing to you
its just the matter how you solve them
and knowing how it change the things you've been through

i feel ive come to realize
how fast life can be compromise
step back to see what's going on
i cant believe this happened to you

its just a problem that i face with them
im not the only person who hates to stand by
complications are the first in this line
with all these pictures slide through my mind
knowing endless consequences
i feel so useless in this
get back
stand back
and as for me
i cant believe

part of me
wont agree
cuz i dont know is this for sure
suddently, suddently
i dont feel so insecure
anymore

everybody's got their problems
everybody says the same thing to you
its just the matter how you solve them
what else are we suppose to do